Tuesday, May 19, 2009 Y 4:58 AM
todays
sucha sucky day!!!
i hated getting scolded for nothing!Esp' when its
NOT MY FAULT!!!! what the hell is happening recently?i DUNNO!!!
my parents have always been siding my little sis for like..3 years?i've tolerated for 3 years,and suddenly,that inner me inside me must have snapped i guess...urh..i lost control....i admit i did a couple of horrible stuff,i could still recall a time when i bit her..(lol..imagine that..) but still,despite all these,that
bias-ness still went a little overboard i think..my sis would storm into my room,at any random hour,any random second,with a sadistic smile on her face,snatch away my pencil box,and start dropping my stationary into the dustbin,one by one,then sneer at me..obviously you will feel angry,but the worst thing is,you cant do anything,for if you did,you will get ten times worst of punishment...yeah,that was what hapened today when i snapped..
my sis,stormed into my room,(as usual,)i was doing my piano theory homework,due tomorrow,and started hitting me for no particular reason.she has weird mood swings....i felt..abused,obviously ,and told her to stop,which she didn't...when i got up and approached the door,she wreastled me and pinned me down again..she screamed at my mum that i was shrieking vulgarities at her,(which i honestly didnt..)
mum was furious and believed every single thing sis said,i got scolded,beatened and further humiliated when my mum starting telling everyone how selfish and cruel i am to my siblings.i kept silent throughout the ordeal but these words kept clouding my mind
"why?Why?WHY?"
i wanted so hard and so badly to cry out loud,but i couldnt..for i will be further humiliated.i know my sis is suffering from a certain disorder illness,causing her to have seizures and mood swings,so i wouldnt blame her for that,but it still hurts to be constantly treated this way.i hate it when my sis behaves this way,this sis is so different from the sis i knew 3 years ago!
AND I HATE IT!!!!This illness has ruined my sis' life,changed my parents and also affected me for crying out loud!!!it sucks and sucks when you have to force a smile whem i m at school.But unless i wanna be a social reject,i guess thats the only way.i really hope that she will be better in the near future,and change for the better.WOOTS!!!!
it feels good now once i 've let everything off my chest...wakakakaka...
i guess thats all folks!(dont worry,the rest of the posts wont be as emo as these...)haha
(>.<)Polar
