i finally posted!!!WOOT
im sry if i did not post too frequently..eheheh.i have my reasons....last night i had tuition,the night before that,i was watching this korean drama..(im gettin addicted to it!)and the night before the night before last night,i was..ok..what did i do???Oh ya!i had tuition too!so sian...eversince i got my atrocious report book back,my mum was...angry..(well,i cant reallythink of the chim-er wword to Guitar!!!my aunt gave me a guitar as my ..er...early birthday gift!!!yeaaah!!!it was pretty cool,and im starting lessons this Sat,with yiru!!!...feeling kinda sleepy now,its 7:38am now..i woke up early today..for no particular reason,i just dont feel like sleepng!Went for my first Braces consultation yesterday.the doctor was like...HMMM...HMMM..Oo...as he observed my teeth...and i was like thinking..stop shining that stupid light into my face!ok...he then explained the risks of the treatment,and the cost(its alot..)after that,he stuff some greenish dough-like stuff into my mouth..it tastes like mint,it remained in my month for like...2 min?i was told that he was making a mold of my teeth..ok...then i did an X-ray of my teeth..with stupid machines revolving around me,and that stupid green and heavy vest that i had to wear...that was all for the consultation yesterday..and today,im supposed to go for my scaling and polishing of teeth..wish me luck!cuz im scared stiff....

Todays sucha boring day.
i woke up feeling all so crappy...yaws...did the usual stuff(brushing teeth n taking more than 15 mins doing my messy hair)and headedoff to school.
i got back some of my papers!
i did well for mothertongue!(much to my pleasant surprise!i thought i might fail you know?!)
passed my emaths..(i was relieved to have passed,but still feels disappointed that im below average...)
failed chemistry and amaths and history(i expected much much more for chem and history.)it was the last thing in my mind that i would fail my history!!Never in history did i ever fail my History paper!ahh!!I was pinning all my hopes on history !!!failed chem and amaths both by 4 marks!!!can imagine how disappointed i am!(somemore for amaths it was ALL due to carelessness!!!Grr..)
i sat in my seat and moped,feeling dreadfully left out and miserable...the world seemed to have come crashing down on my head.still tried to smile though... (im glad it seemed to work pretty well!)
after school,went with wanxuan to collect the cheque and passport,then i went to the CO room with her,watched her demo playing the double bass and cello,all the while i was worryin that the string might break..(but it didnt!thank goodness!i might have freaked out)she's sucha pro!!i tried playing it but all it came out was some freaking dying cat sounds..uhh..-.-''
she played canon which i thought was really awesome!at around 3.05pm,my dad called and said that my sis went to te hospital.i was freakin scared but thankfully nothing serious happened,after a short check-up,she was allowed to go home.i went home and moped around the house,constantly lingering near the piano.told my mum some of my better results,i really do not know of what else to say...should i tell her ofmy other failed results?or should i just keep quiet?im so lost!

todays sucha sucky day!!!
i hated getting scolded for nothing!Esp' when its NOT MY FAULT!!!! what the hell is happening recently?i DUNNO!!!
my parents have always been siding my little sis for like..3 years?i've tolerated for 3 years,and suddenly,that inner me inside me must have snapped i guess...urh..i lost control....i admit i did a couple of horrible stuff,i could still recall a time when i bit her..(lol..imagine that..) but still,despite all these,that bias-ness still went a little overboard i think..my sis would storm into my room,at any random hour,any random second,with a sadistic smile on her face,snatch away my pencil box,and start dropping my stationary into the dustbin,one by one,then sneer at me..obviously you will feel angry,but the worst thing is,you cant do anything,for if you did,you will get ten times worst of punishment...yeah,that was what hapened today when i snapped..
my sis,stormed into my room,(as usual,)i was doing my piano theory homework,due tomorrow,and started hitting me for no particular reason.she has weird mood swings....i felt..abused,obviously ,and told her to stop,which she didn't...when i got up and approached the door,she wreastled me and pinned me down again..she screamed at my mum that i was shrieking vulgarities at her,(which i honestly didnt..)
mum was furious and believed every single thing sis said,i got scolded,beatened and further humiliated when my mum starting telling everyone how selfish and cruel i am to my siblings.i kept silent throughout the ordeal but these words kept clouding my mind
"why?Why?WHY?"
i wanted so hard and so badly to cry out loud,but i couldnt..for i will be further humiliated.i know my sis is suffering from a certain disorder illness,causing her to have seizures and mood swings,so i wouldnt blame her for that,but it still hurts to be constantly treated this way.i hate it when my sis behaves this way,this sis is so different from the sis i knew 3 years ago!AND I HATE IT!!!!This illness has ruined my sis' life,changed my parents and also affected me for crying out loud!!!
it sucks and sucks when you have to force a smile whem i m at school.But unless i wanna be a social reject,i guess thats the only way.i really hope that she will be better in the near future,and change for the better.
WOOTS!!!!
it feels good now once i 've let everything off my chest...wakakakaka...
i guess thats all folks!(dont worry,the rest of the posts wont be as emo as these...)haha
(>.<)Polar

Did not blog for 3 days!!!i think...
i wanted to change blog skin at first..but thought it was too much of a hassle..then i was like..forget it...and went on to post this!:D
Rita didnt come to school today!!!NAWWWW!!!(oh great..she just smsed me,she dont think she is coming tmrw!!!double noO!!!)
Emoed throughout the rest of the day...failed bio!!!NAWWW...highest in class is 14 outta 20..guess what i got..8..GOOD JOB..(as if!)
left class at 1pm,cuz got band performance..again!!!!*sobs*
i was sweating like mad sia!i felt that the instrument i was holding could just slip off my palms any minute!(btw,i dont have sweaty palm..it was just..i dunno....:P)
after performance,(i played badly..)i chionged to the canteen and bought bread and munched quickly before heading to the concourse.
On the bus,jia wei kept playing with my hp..and i played with she little racing car game on hers....before i knew it..got carsickness...urgh!
Chinatown would have been fun if we were allowed to roam the streets and buystuff,but instead,we stood under the hot sun,listening to talks....AND MAN IT WAS HOT HOT HOT!!!i sweated more...
NOw,finally in the comfort of my home,with the fan blowing straight at my face,then i realised i left my maths homework in class....GOOD JOB...
*moans*
how bad can this day get?
it's 9:10pm now..and im gonna sleep!
till then my friends!
ZZZZzzzzzzzzz

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